Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Burn Baby Burn...

So I gave in finally. I joined a gym 2 days ago. I decided to join Curves for Women. I really like it so far.

You know, when you finally give in to make the life change of losing weight, it scares you. Especially when they decide to take your measurements. EEEK! That is all I will say about that.

So I am going to be making time for the gym almost everyday I hope. If not, every other day. But I aim for everyday. The only disadvantage to Curves is there hours can really work against me if I work a mid-shift. They won't be open before I go to work and will be closed by the time I am done. So those are days I would miss. But I am gung ho for the dedication to lose 50 pounds.

And even Jeff is supportive. He's glad I am doing it for myself and no one else. He doesn't care what I look like. He has seen the best and the worst of me and he still love me. Awww.

Oh well. Its time to go to the gym.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Shock and Awe Baby....Shock and Awe

So yeah. I just saw the funniest thing on Conan.

HAHAHAHA! So funny. "FIRED YOU ARE" Mwhahahahaha! So funny. Yoda with Trump's hair. Oh so funny.

Give me a break. Its 330 in the morning.

But there is good reason I am up tonight. Kinda.

I can't sleep first of all. So happy. After a crappy day at work, thinking about the earlier events of yesterday, I can't complain. And I am in a gushy mood anyway. Just finished watching The Princess Diaries 2 - Royal Engagement. HA! Ah so fitting.

NO! I didn't get engaged. BUT.............................................................................................

Jeff did let me look at diamonds today. And he didn't scoff or pull me away. I pointed at a really sweet band with very VERY tiny diamonds that is on a great sale at Fred Meyer Jeweler for just under $60. He did giggle. Giggling from him is good. Close to cackle but a giggle.

He told me February.

LONG LONG TIME! AHH! But good things about February. Our 2 year anniversary is on the 6th of February. Then Valentines Day on the 14th. And my birthday on the 26th. What am I gunna do with myself until then! AHHHHHH!

So needless to say, progress in the love dept. And so he decides to grow a little.

But I can guarantee everyone that reads this. This ring, if he chooses to get it, WILL NOT be an engagement ring. It will be a sort of promise ring. Jeff has this thing about getting the perfect one. He is picky. And he wants to pay for it himself. Not his parents. He wants to get it right the first time and not upgrade it 10 years down the road.

Oh so happy. Things have been so good for us recently. Its great. Not to mention we have gotten to spend a lot of time with each other this month since he is done with school till right after the first of the year. So we are sopping it up like pancakes and syrup. :-) YAY!

Ok off the high horse. I need to sleep.

Or do I?

To all the peeps who read this out there....Try Trader Joe's Spicy Cider. Put it in a mug and pop it in the microwave for 2 minutes. The BEST DAMN APPLE CIDER EVER BABY!

Ok ok ok .... I am not on crack. I SWEAR! Just giddy and restless. And I haven't had hardly any caffeine today.


Saturday, December 11, 2004

Somebody Analyze my dream...PLEASE!!!!

And don't tell me I am on Crack Tara!

I had the most bizzare dream last night. So I will start at the beginning.

Myself, Tara and Mel are standing in line waiting to get into a choir competition in Phoenix. I believe its a college competition. As we wait in line, my ex boyfriend, his best friend from high school and his brother walk up. We will call the ex-boyfriend BW. (Tara and Mel you know who this is...Cactus) BW is like awestruck with me and says "Hello" and "Long time no see" (Very atypical of BW). The friend and brother follow. I am also taken aback by BW and almost mezmerized unable to control emotions. We approach the door, hand the person our tickets and go inside. Its open seating so BW and crew decide to sit with us and Tara and Mel are excited about it. As we head for our seating area, I decide to go to the bathroom to gain some control over myself. They just say they will meet me at the seats. I said ok and go to the bathroom. (Fade out)

The next scene, I am walking down the stairs and BW's brother is 2 rows above Mel, Tara and BW and the friend is sitting 1 row directly behind BW. There is a seat for me between Tara and BW with Mel sitting next to Tara on the other side. I approach the aisle and BW turns around and says "What took you so long?" and I said "There was a lady changing diapers for 3 kids in the only bathroom available. So there was a line." I sit down and ask Mel who's up first and she said "I dunno Punk."

Then I turn to BW who looks at me and says he has missed me so very much. And he was sorry for what has happened in the past. (Yeah right, he would NEVER say this) Then he leaned into me and kissed me. Ever so sweetly and very gentle. He moved slightly away from my face after the gentle kiss gave me a wink and leaned back in. This time, it was a much deeper kiss that started off all right but progressively got harder. Meaning he was pushing against my face with his harder. Almost to a painful point. I couldn't get him off me. That goes on for about 5 minutes and my friends nor his say anything. They just talk amongst themselves while we make out amid them.

When he finished, he looked back at me and said "I have waited so long to do that. I should have done that when we were in high school. I was so stupid." (No way he would say that either)Then he looked down the rub the leg of his pants as to relax a wrinkle and notices his pants are at his ankles. (I didn't do it while kissing, for sure) He giggled and picked them back up and buttons them. Then he places his hand on my thigh and I notice my pants are almost to my ankles but I had a sweatshirt spread over my lap so it wasn't as noticable. (He didn't remove my pants himself either) He moved in for the kill by hand (so to speak) and I stopped him. And I picked up and rebuttoned my pants. We both looked at each other and giggled. We leaned in for another kiss that was perfectly passionate just as the lights went down for the competition to begin. Our friends said "You guys are so cute but lets participate in what we are really here for." (Fade out)

That was the end of the dream.

A little background on BW. When we were together in high school, he lied to me, cheated on me, broke up with me over email and was technically my first boyfriend. He was the first person to say "I love you" to me and me back to him (Although I know now that I never really meant it and didn't know what love was then. So I can't really consider him the "First Love") He really was an overall asshole but an incredible musician. My love for a certain type of classical music came from him. Other than that, I almost truly hate this guy. But more so feel sorry for him and his stupidity throughout his life.

That is all I have to say about that. I am totally weirded out by this dream. Any input would be appreciated. Anything. I need some understanding. Blah.

Friday, December 10, 2004


I hate midnight shifts. So my store is going to be open now until midnight. Just until Christmas thank heaven. But still, our store is DEAD by 830pm. WHY WHY WHY!!! Stay open until midnight???? Grr arg. I have to work tonight. Boo Hiss.

Anyway. The other night Jeff and I ventured into the slummy downtown Portland area and visited that quirky little joint called Voodoo Doughnuts. Check out their website. I posted the link on the 8th I believe. Anywho. This place is literally a hole in the wall and it took us almost an hour to find it. This was of course no thanks to all the stupid one way streets in Portland. But hey. The doughnuts were good. I had a Grape Ape and the one below. HAHA! Enjoy.

Voodoo Cock 'n Balls! Posted by Hello

Picture from my trip to SFO

This is a picture of myself and my friend Heather in San Francisco. I traveled there to visit her a few weeks ago. We were on a bay cruise heading toward the Golden Gate Bridge which you can see in the background.

What? San Francisco with no fog? Posted by Hello

Wednesday, December 08, 2004


Yes. That is how I feel. I worked my first split shift today. I worked from 10am till 1145am. Then came home for 3 hours and made lunch and watched "The Passion of the Christ". Oh so good. Then I went back to work at 3pm until 9:15. Egad! It sucked. No motivation. I never want to work a midshift again.

Jeff and I might check out this really cool place in Portland this evening. It's called "Voodoo Doughnuts". I will write more about it if we go.

Oh oh! Yeah. Went Christmas light looking the other night. We have a Griswold family in the neighborhood. Pictures coming soon.

I am working on finding a place in Vancouver to have my picture taken for a Christmas card. Walgreens does holiday photo greeting cards for cheap. <<<>>> La la la.

Happy 2nd day of Hanukkah.

Sorry about my randomness. That is just my mood. Get over it. PUNK!

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Oh So Cute

For those who have wanted to know...little Guido is a Maltese puppy. He weighs 3.5 lbs. and thinks he is human. My mom feeds him hamburgers from McDonalds. So spoiled. My other dog Rudy isn't too jealous though. He gets Peppermint Patties from my mom.

Little Puff of Cute Posted by Hello

I am so excited. My dad got me an iPod for Christmas and he decided to buy me speakers too. Woot! I can't wait till my mom gets here. She is delivering it to me.

I have been uber productive today too. I went shopping at Freddy's (Fred Meyer) and came home and made Christmas cookies. I have a roast that I am thinking about making today but haven't decided yet.I am hungry enough but just can't decide. That and Jeff is coming over at some time today. So I dunno if I should eat it now, wait for him, or not cook it at all and go out for dinner. Who knows. Blah.

Saturday, December 04, 2004

ROCK ON! I got paid today. And I decided to buy a new game for my GameCube. It's awesome. Donkey Konga! With Bongos none the less. Only $50. I was good. It is sooooo much fun. It has cool music. "We Will Rock You" " Oy Como Va" "Super Mario Theme" "Louie Louie" just to name a few. It is like Dance Party Revolution meets playing the drums. It is way fun. I played for quite a while and my roommate also did. We had so much fun. {{must not become obsessive}}

And I bought a stereo today. I haven't had one in over a year and I am getting an iPod for Christmas so I needed something to plug that into while I am home. Its really nice. RCA Neo 5-CD Bookshelf Sound System to be exact. I made my yearly pilgrimage to Super Walmart. That was enough for another year. It was 11pm and they were packed. WEIRD!!!

I am excited about Christmas being over but I am wanting it to be here at the same time. My mom is coming to see me. Yay. And she is bringing her new puppy that I named. I named him Guido Pasquale. I put a picture up for you all to see his cuteness.

Guido Pasquale Posted by Hello

Thursday, December 02, 2004

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...

Bah Humbug! If I make it through Christmas I can make it through anything. You never realize how hectic Christmas really is until you work in retail through it.

Everything from breaking Christmas decorations, to people sitting on sunglasses, to people trying to return a voice recorder they probably had for months. Idiots! Idiots I say!

I can truly say that I must "RUN" into 50 idiots a day. AT LEAST!!! God there are a lot of stupid people on this earth.

But thank God there are so many great people to make up for the idiots of the planet.

You almost wonder if those apes from outer space are starting to arrive to take us over and make humans slaves.

Blah. That is all I have to say for now.

BTW...Happy Birthday Mel (Yes its belated but I talked to you yesterday)